Found it.

I found things I enjoy at my work. Well... Not really found, I knew what they are. I just didnt have time to do them for some time.
But... Liking to do somethibg is just one part of the job. Actually making it count. Have some real value to what you do. Bringing back some fruits of the effort you have invested. That is what allows me to continiu what I am doing. So lets hope that it will work. And if not. Then lets see why not and make that shit work anyway.